I have the fault of holding onto every good memory of a relationship and forgetting about all the persons bad traits and bad times. And I say FAULT because after the relationship is over I just keep beating myself up remembering all that I don't have anymore.
And then I see said person again and remember why it ended, and why I want someone better for myself.
Seriously this past time was a HUGE tender mercy. Especially because he did a fade out: talking to me one day, kissing me a few days before that and then NOTHING!
And me being prideful, and hurt didn't reach out to contact him. Until we ran into each other about 2 months later.
And I could see all the things that I wanted that he didn't have. I saw reality for the first time. It was so comforting.
Game Plan: From now on I just need to close that gap between when it ends and when I get closure.
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