Hottest part of his body

I like collar bones. They are hot.


Some girls are all about the arms, or the butt,  I like the rock hard chest- collar bones included.

scent

I hate that the smell of that building reminds me of you. You aren't even around anymore, and still I walk in and thoughts of you begin to flow. 


I wish my nose knew that I don't want that connection. 

you would think

i went on a blind date with Topher Grace

he was taller than me, but slumped in his chair and I felt like I towered over him in the car.


He also didn't have much to say. Lots of silence.


Though the activity was really fun. I love comedy shows. 


Biggest problem of this date:
his lack of confidence. I need someone who is more confident than me. Who will step up so I don't have to. I don't like planning the date you ask me out to, and I don't like having to make every decision down to where we sit. I want to be part of an equal relationship, not wear the pants. 


This might have a really interesting follow up story coming. He basically asked me out for a second date at the end of the night. WHAT WOULD WE TALK ABOUT ON THE SECOND DATE IF WE RAN OUT OF THINGS TO SAY ON THE FIRST? I didn't know what to tell him so I said "sure, I'm just really busy..." We'll see how these avoiding techniques pan out. Maybe I'll just have to give into a ice cream date or something. 


I always date nice guys, guys who are going to make some girl really really happy. Just not me. 

Answer Honestly:

I have always thought that all my dates have been weirdos, and that's why I have been single for these past few years. 

Then it struck me today... what if I am the weird one?

-Do I have some crazy quirks that are just unattractive?

-Am I too  needy? Or not needy enough?

-Or maybe just too picky, looking for someone who doesn't exist?

-Is my aura unappetizing? 

-Do I talk too much, or not enough?

-How about my appearance? Do I need a makeover?

Seriously, I must be doing something wrong! Bad streaks shouldn't last this long for normal girls, right?...

Quote of the Day

"It's easier to be killed by a terrorist than it is to find a husband over the age of 40!" 

                       "That statistic is not true!"

 "That's right, it's not true, but it feels true." 

-Sleepless in Seattle 

Somewhere Out There

To my mr.somebody,

As I drove home today I couldn't help but wonder where are you? 

Are you in the car next to me?

Or maybe in a whole different state?

In a classroom somewhere?

At work?

Sitting on your couch?

On vacation?

Do I know you?

Have we met? 

Who are you talking to?

Are you currently in a relationship?

Or are you looking for me too?

Do you ever think of me? 

Because right now, I am thinking of you.

Love,

your Ava

"Twu Wuv"

Everyone keeps using the word "true love." 


-the mormon bachelorette is out to find "true mormon love"
-ABC's bachelorette is on the search for true love


What does True Love mean?
-pure
-honest
-never ending
-all encompassing
-sacrificing


If it isn't true love, in those definitions, shouldn't it just be called LUST or COVETING?


Then it isn't love anyway. So there is no point of defining "true" love, because love is all those things that I listed. 


I guess I just feel like it is love or it's not. 


That's my two cents for the day. 

ABC's Bachelorette

I hadn't watched ANY of this season's episodes of the Bachelorette, but got roped into watching the season finale. And I must say that JP is darling, and I am so happy in her choice. 


For all of you, who like me, didn't watch a lick of it, and are out of the loop: he is amazing. He is so genuine, and thoughtful: I just want one like him of my own! She kinda bugs me but you can just tell when he is with her that she is his everything. I really hope that they work out, and that this is the real thing. I even watched them on Regis and Kelly the next day because I was hooked. I fell in love with their love. They have so much passion, and I love it. What can I say? I love love. 

the mormon bachelorette

if you can't tell. i fail.


this summer has just been a bit to packed with my work being flipped/changed around, I took on a summer semester of school (eek! but one more semester closer to graduation baby!), vacations, and then with trying to fit in a social life (yet, not very many dates, might I add)  I can't keep up with TMB. so sorry. though i'm not sure anyone cared.

Dear Ashley,
I wish you the best, sorry that I am not able to keep up. Hoping you find your Mr. Right!
-Ava

"love is a gift we give ourselves."

agree or disagree?

Sometimes I run into weird people. I'll admit it, I sometimes have weird friends. People that at first glace might seem a bit overwhelming. Though, I think we are all weird, just in different ways.

But throughout all these years I have found one thing to be true with each of them... with all of us. Everyone deserves to be loved. The old, the young, the rich, the bratty, the fat, the socially awkward, the saint, the sinner, the mean, the talkers, the whole of everyone.  No one should be denied this. To find someone who loves them completely.